Sunday, May 7, 2017
dryad mystic ancient soul healer
Wondering what to do with my life.
It seems everything I long for is against the
Rent a house? Commute? Desk Job? Bills? TV? The mall? City?
All of it insults my soul. Deeply.
I am a dryad, mystic, priestess, shaman, healer,
ancient soul, pagan goddess, gaia spirit. (medicine woman?)
How do I reconcile this deep longing with my lot in life?
when jobs deplete my soul, the city suffocates me.
Please show me another way.
I do not see a path that has barefoot,
sleep in branches under the stars,
wildflowers, meadows, growing my own food,
helping others from my heart (not my wallet)
painting, singing with the trees…
If I can’t ever be this, then I think I would rather die…
than suffocate at mindless, heartless jobs,
contributing to a system I don’t believe in, that makes us slaves.
How can I thrive in a world that values everything fake?
How do I fake it too?
And get by financially?
For I life I don’t know how to achieve.
I don’t know how to do this, I don’t know who to ask.
The Universe? Angels?
“Hey, how do I thrive in a 3D world that depletes me,
insults every aspect of what I hold dear?”
I’m grieving and mourning everything I’ve never had in this life.
How do I turn that into hope? And a meaningful life? An abundant life?
If I’m going to feel like this forever in this lifetime, then I want out.
Or show me another way.